so about that

In case you couldn't tell from my previous post I have a new love interest. Big shocker. This one is pretty stellar and I wasn't sure how to approach the subject of turning just friends into something more so my Bishop encouraged to just put it too paper. And I did exactly that. I don't know if I will ever actually re-write it out on paper and give it to him or if I will just man up and say it too his face, but either way I have got to get the hell out of the "friend zone". Damn that friend zone, a place no woman should ever find herself when it comes to the right guy for her. Suggestions on how to get out?

A letter to the One.

Dear You,

You have many names none of which I can put on here, one of them you know but most you don't. One never knows how to approach the subject of laying it all on the line, but I was encouraged by a man of infinite wisdom and faith to put it in a letter and hold onto it for awhile. I however think a written and printed letter is a dangerous thing to just have on my person, so I decided to write in my blog; a place I know is safe because no self respecting manly man would read something this sappy on his own volition.

We have been friends for some months now and ours is a friendship that I cherish beyond measure. You took care of me when I was recovering from surgery, laugh at my jokes, share your workouts with me, pick tables up one handed, tell me when I have pen on my face and show me where, you love my food and eat it in on a regular basis, you check on me if I am sick, you're kind, loving, strong, grounded, you laugh at me cause I don't eat pointy french fries and you secretly love my nickname for you (even if it was revealed while I was under the influence).

For all of the reasons above and a few more I find that my feelings for you are beginning to change and grow into something stronger than friendship because the characteristics you posses are ones that I would seek in someone that I would like to pursue a relationship with. So my request is this; if there is a chance that you see this friendship potentially growing into something more please let me know and if it is your wish to remain friends that is alright with me too, I would like to know so that I might stop these feelings from continuing to grow and we can keep our friendship right where it is.

So Big Handsome, there it is. Time for me keep fish or cut the bait.


always-

Caity

Christmas

So I realize my posts are a bit out of order... but no one ever accused me of being an organized or orderly person... so there. This year was my first Christmas away from my my family entirely. Last year I managed to go to California to my Aunt and Uncle's for Christmas, but this year my best friend and her family took me in. Let me give a little back story on how my best friend became my best friend.  I have known her husband and his family for a very long time. Me, my siblings, him, his siblings all went to high school together (not at the same time mind you) our Mom's are even best friends. So when I came out to Utah they kind of took me in and me and Krissa have been besties ever since. I love this woman she is awesome! We laugh constantly, talk all the time, and make a great duo in the kitchen! Because of knowing them I have had the blessing of becoming an honorary aunt to their kids Rylee and Nolan. I love those little monsters ever so much and have learned many a valuable lesson from them.... like don't let a toddler who is potty training drink a rootbeer during the movie cause he will likely pee his pants and you will have to leave early...... but I digress. Back on track. Christmas. So they took me in this year and I had a marvelous Christmas we read  from the scriptures, made cookies for Santa opened presents (and wrapped a bazillion presents) and on Christmas morning the house was full of laughter as Rylee, Nolan and their sweet and precious cousins Megan, Connor and Amaya opened their presents. It was a Christmas I will never forget and am thankful I have such wonderful "family" in Utah.

P.S. They also got me a Kindle for Christmas... they are definitely on my A- List. Just kidding. But seriously.

My friend Dan

So yesterday we celebrated my friend Dan's 27th birthday! Let me just take a minute and tell everyone how awesome Dan is. He is the kind of guy that is always there for a friend in need, always has a shoulder to cry on, some how just magically knows when you need a hug or need to talk, doesn't take himself to seriously, but when your having a serious conversation he gives the best advice or just listens when you need to talk. I don't think he has ever met a stranger and he loves people unconditionally and will be friend anyone. I have only known him for about a year, but because of him being in my life it has been one of the best years, Fact. We always have fun whether we are just hanging out and baking cookies till the wee hours of the morning, going on a last minute camping trip or going to a rock concert I have made tons of memories with this guy.
 He is a man of faith and has a strong testimony of our religion and because of his testimony and example my own testimony has grown. He truly is just flippin awesome and everyone who meets him instantly loves him.  Oh one last fact he gets genuinely excited for the silliest presents i.e He loves the solar system and is fascinated by different stars planets and galaxies, so far Christmas I got him a very juvenile albeit informative pop up book of the solar system and he was so pumped and like a kid in a candy store. So that's my friend Dan in a nutshell. Not sure if he will ever read this... not even sure if he knows I have a blog, but if he does read it... Dan I love you and your one of the greatest friends a person could hope for. 

New Year, New Me!

New Year's resolutions have never been my thing. EVER. I do it for like 2 days then I am back to normal Caity, but this year is different, I will be turning 26 in May and I do not want to look like the broadside of a barn when that day comes.

So I have started the Insanity work out videos with one of my best friends Arielle and even though she doesn't need to do it she is being a trooper and doing it with me. For the past couple of months her our friend Brad and myself have been holding each other accountable for our diets and trying to eat healthier and so far I have dropped about 15lbs with just changing my diet. So now I need to throw the fitness in too. I am excited to start this year off right. I am excited to feel comfortable in my own skin, it has  been a long time coming.

I will be taking before and after pictures and will post those in 90 days when I can actually stomach to look at myself in a sports bra. Wish me luck. this is day one and already my thighs are killing.

Judgement Free Zone right???

O.K. Confession time, the other day I bought a pocket version of "Dating for Dummies"   for 2.99 at T.J.Maxx, now before you start rolling your eyes and judging me let me explain; it was a friends birthday and I intended it to be a gag gift and after I bought it I remembered that said friend is currently in a relationship and after my  'ahh crap'  moment I decided to read it, because however reluctant I am to admit I am indeed VERY single. Surprisingly enough it has some good points and there were a couple of times I was like "well crap, I have been there done that". After reading the 10 page manual I came away with two bits of advice for my fellow single twenty-somethings, here it goes:

After a GREAT date and you are anticipating that call for the second one remember this : "Dont worry, be happy. Nothing besides nuclear holocaust, is the end of the world"

After a BAD date and you are feeling depressed, revolted, angry or whatever do this simple trick: "Count how many days you have been alive. Subtract only one." It doesn't seem so bad now eh?

Crocheting

So I like to think of myself as a fairly crafty person and normally most of the things I make come out pretty darn good, but lately I have taken up crocheting and so far the hat I am making is looking like it was mean't for Hagrid from Harry Potter. I am trying to finish off the edges so it looks like one of those things that holds your hair. I will post picture soon. Promise.

Awesomely Awesome Friends...

 Have never mentioned how blessed I am to have such amazing, loving, giving, funny and just all around awesome friends I have? Here are a couple of examples: A few weeks ago I was down on my luck, I was wicked sick with a sinus infection, the boy I thought liked me turned out to not like me, I was stuck at work and not able to take a sick day so my best friend being the awesome person that she is drove 30 miles from her house to bring me a my favorite Jamba Juice and a loaf of pumpkin chocolate chip bread! That is friendship. Another prime example my good friend McKinley has been hearing me complain about a new roommate who likes to drink my milk and eat my eggs so last night she came to my work to have something printed but she also brought me a gallon of milk and a carton of eggs! I am so very thankful that I have people in my life who are such excellent examples of how friendship should be, no I am not saying people should buy each other things all the time but it is those simple acts of service that can truly brighten someone's day and make them feel special! I love them so much!

Def Leppard and Heart

So I don't think I ever posted about it but a few months ago I managed to get tickets to see Def Leppard and Heart and me and one of my really good friends Daniel went to the concert! And holy cow was it awesome!!!! I am now convinced that I can die a happy person because I have heard Heart sing "Alone" live and I have heard Def Leppard sing "Two steps behind" live. All the other things are inconsequential children, marriage, degree etc. I have seen two of my all time faves perform live and life is good. And it helps that I got to share the memory with one of the coolest guys on the face of the earth!

So crafty and so very proud of myself!

Ok so I have something to brag about and I am not one to toot my own horn (who am I kidding?)  I went to the local thrift store the other day and I found a simple plain and boring dress from the 90's but with a few little touches and hemming it about 8 inches I managed to make it into something totally me and totally sassy! Check it out! Did I mention I paid $6 for the dress?

                                                                          Before

                                           After  (I cropped out my face. It was an awful picture)

Anyone know where I can find a genie?

 Lately, I have been on a total Etta James, Billie Holiday, Patsy Cline, Ottis Redding, Ray Charles, Ella Fitzgerald and Zooey Deschanel kick..... which gives me the strongest urge to slow dance around my house, cry into my pillow, sing in the shower,and generally do any kind of task with a fluid and musical rhythm as if the artist is performing right in front of me for my own personal enjoyment.  If I am rolling out  a pie crust there is a rhythm to it, if I am stirring a pot on the stove I am doing it with flare and style, if I am curling my hair you can bet that about half way through, the curling iron has turned into a microphone and the pillows on my bed are a captivated audience.

 Now all this singing, dancing and generally living in a perpetual state of disillusion comes with a price. My head is often in the clouds day dreaming about some boy who will come in and sweep me off my feet at any moment. Which means that I am distracted from important tasks at all times. Occasionally reality breaks through and I realize I am single, in my mid- twenties ( insert sigh), working at a copy shop, all my friends are too attractive for their own good and I feel like I am the token funny girl (every group of friends has one) and in general my life is moving at a steady pace to nowhere. Now don't get me wrong, for the most part I love my life and don't have to many complaints and I realize that I am in control of my own destiny and if things aren't going the way I would like it is up to me to make the change. But sometimes I wish that I had a fairy god mother to make all my worries go away and put Prince Charming on my doorstep. I know that I ask too much. But honestly what woman doesn't? You mean I can't have my cake and eat it too?

  I know that my incoherent ramblings make no sense to anyone but me, so I apologize if it seems I jump all over the place. Actually scratch that I don't apologize.  An apology implies that I intend on rectifying the problem, and if I change that than I wouldn't be the same person. Perhaps I have read to much into my own psyche?

random fact.

Jeggings and Spanx are a girl's best friend. Promise. They will never let you down, even if you aren't going out for a fun night on the town its nice to squeeze into them and say "oh there you are waist and hello beautifully sculpted calf muscles". So to all of my lovely lady friends who read my blog... if you ever need a good ol' ego boost throw on the spanx and jeggings and twirl around like no one is watching.

Under the Weather

   One thing that people should know about me, I am a terrible sick person.  I tend to be reclusive but I want people to automatically know that something is wrong and show up at my door with jello cups, popsicles and hot pineapple juice.  I would never actually ask for help and when I do that means the situation is usually dire.  Also another fact I ALWAYS assume the worst when I am sick, like I currently have a sinus infection which caused a double ear infection, but before I actually saw the doctor I had self diagnosed myself with a brain tumor that was sitting on my optical nerve which accounted for the headaches, blurry vision and nausea. Let me give a piece of advice to my fellow hypochondriacs (Mom) WebMD is NOT your friend, because that website only confirmed my brain tumor theory and sent me into a slight panic attack and made me send a mass text to friends and family that I did in fact have a brain tumor, which in turn made them say" no you don't Caity" then I in my typical smart ass fashion tell them " When I  die of a brain tumor I want me headstone to say I told you so" .   I don't know what I am trying to accomplish with this post.... maybe I am just bored because I am laying on my couch watching Swamp People (awesome show btw) and I can literally feel my head throbbing and all I want is a big hug from a certain someone and maybe rest my fevered head on his shoulder. I am even willing to sacrifice my dignity and let him see me at my absolute worst to get what I want. 

correction

the last post I said " me and my other three siblings" yea I meant other two siblings. It was late I wasn't thinking clearly.

hold the phone!!

Remember many moons ago when I said I had taken up a new hobby and it was quilting??? Well I am happy to report that not only did I finish my first ever quilt and give it to my Mom for her birthday in June, I managed to make her cry too. Anyone who knows me and my siblings the goal when we give our Mom a present is to see who can make her cry... my sister Melita always busts out the big guns with the practical gift like sheets, new silverware etc... but me and the other three get as cheesy as possible.

                                                      the birthday girl with her quilt
 

Family trip

Well another year and another successful family trip to the Frio has come and gone! Oh how I love my loud, funny, slightly crude and loving family! Nothing fills my heart with such joy and contentment as being in the great state of Texas surrounded by the people I love most in this world. I love the 6 hour road trip to the cabin with my Mom, so many life lessons learned, words of wisdom passed on and precious memories made with that wonderful woman. Seeing my brother Beau and still looking up at him like I did when I was 5 and was his ever present shadow. Sharing secrets under the stars with my oldest friend Deseree and my big sister Elsie. Seeing my oldest sister and my closest confidant Melita, with my precious nephew growing in her belly. He will no doubt be the most spoiled child on the face of the planet. Cooking, cleaning and caring for my family (it's my fave)! Closing the chapter in my life of my first unrequited love.( that's a long story) Blue Bell Ice Cream, Whataburger, Taco Cabana, Pluckers and BBQ. Being with my fantastic cousins and aunts and uncle. Growing closer as a family carrying on the tradition of the family trip to the Frio River. My cup runneth over.

  

my awesome family minus two party poopers who left early.          

Whoops.

I promise I have not fallen off the face of the earth. Just been a wee bit distracted with life, love and work. So much to say and I don't know where to start.

I have the most amazing group of friends a girl could ask for. They have each blessed my life in so many ways and without them being my voice of reason who knows what kind of pickles I would have gotten myself into. They keep me grounded but still manage to let me float in the clouds and daydream a lot of the time, but let's face it anyone who knows me knows that I will always find a way to do that. I am good at daydreaming. Fact.

Surprise Surprise, I have a new love interest. I am pretty sure he doesn't know I like him or maybe considering the fact that I am about as subtle as a gun he probably has a vague inclination. (and yes I partially stole that line from a movie.. but hey if the shoe fits)

   I don't get why things have to be so complicated, as single men and women I do not understand why we have to do this dance around each other about playing that proverbial "game". I am not a patient person and typically I live by the philosophy that I want what I want when I want it. And me learning the "game" is like someone with two left feet attempting to learn the Argentine Tango it ain't happening people. Why if you like someone is just so hard to say "hey I like you and I think you like me lets go out sometime" NOT that complicated.

All my ranting and raving aside. This guy is fantastic ( that may sound biased but ask anyone who knows him and they will say the same thing). Smart, humble, funny, full of life, caring, compassionate, has a laugh that makes my heart skip a beat, when I am around him it is so comfortable and just easy to be near him like I have known him my whole life. He is just freaking awesome. I could go on and on and on about all the things that I like about this guy but for the sake of not coming across as a crazy person I will stop there. Heaven help me if he ever reads this. I am crossing my fingers that he doesn't pay attention when I update my Facebook to tell people to read my blog. That would be bad news bears.

On a non boy related note!!! (this rarely happens) I have finally transferred out of the barren wasteland that is the FedexOffice of Spanish Fork, UT to the freakishly busy but always full of attractive men to look at Provo location! ( I lied there was a mention of men)  Not only is this new store a good growing and learning opportunity for me, but it is literally a one minute drive from my house as opposed to the 30 mile round trip commute to Spanish Fork!!! yay for me!!!!








   

Really?

So I have been reading a lot of books lately about strong Southern women and I find myself feeling a little self righteous and entitled... I'm just waiting for Heavenly Father to force feed me some more of his famous humble pie. It's a random post but just kind of where my thought process currently is.

Fun quote from one of my books " men are like mosquitoes, best slap them down early, before they get a chance to torment you"
It's a good isn't it?

Sorry

There are no excuses for my laziness when it comes to blogging. I simply have not had anything interesting to say. But today I find myself in a rather pensieve mood and have been reflecting on past events. I have a question for my few readers. Have you ever met someone and they were so absolutely perfect for you that you swear you heard angels singing when they smiled at you? Well that happened to me a couple of months ago and I swear this man was pulled right from dreams... but after making dinner for him and some friends I haven't heard from him and my world has been shattered cause I was so sure that he was put ont his earth for me. Oh well.

new lesson

When you are super duper mad, swearing and punching the door will do nothing but leave you with an aching hand and a bad taste in your mouth.