Sorry......

I know it seems like I have fallen off the face of the earth but I promise I haven't. I have been trying my hand at self-discovery and its not working out so hot..... turns out I'm not a huge fan of myself sometimes and that doesn't do a whole lot for the old ego. So I have been trying to re-assess things and prioritize my life and so far somewhat good. I have discovered a new hobby thanks to a very generous gift from an even more generous sister drumroll please.................................. SEWING!!!! I am a sewing fool. After a couple of weeks of sheer intimidation (yes I was indeed intimidated by a piece of machinery) ; I finally bit the bullet and took a whole day to discover this machine and after much swearing, frustration, temper tantrums and mass amounts of chocolate I have come to love and adore this machine and Im getting quite good at making some seriously cute head bands! I dont know if I am ready to tackle the big things like blankets and clothing... but I seem to do ok in the accessory department.

Sorry for that, I didn't know that one could rant that long on their mediocre sewing abilities. On to new topics. I have attempted a new years resolution and already failed it. I saw that coming a 100000 miles away. Oh well "que sera sera" right? Much to my displeasure my dating life is still in the toilet oh well. I know my NFL football player is out there somewhere, I think I just need to move to a state that actually has a football team. Good idea? My financial woes are still just that... woes. After years of being slovenly while living with my Mother, I have ever since I moved to Utah developed a distaste for clutter and messes and have turned into a clean freak... shocker I know.  I have  had the pleasure of making new fantastic friends who love me no matter what state of chaos my life is in. I have a best friend who I wouldn't trade for all the tea in China, she is my sounding board, my comic relief and her home is my weekend getaway from the thriving metropolis known as Provo. Her two kids are the apples of my eye and have me wrapped around their precious sticky fingers.. especially that Nolan I think he might always be the only man in my life. lol jk. kinda creepy now that I think about that.

You know what I think is funny? Now that I have moved to Utah I have actually grown closer with my oldest sister Melita. I talk to her almost every day and her advice is that of a wizened old sage. I treasure our phone conversations. She always tells me what I need to hear and its usually something I dont want to hear but oh well tis the curse of being the youngest child, my siblings insist on knowing more than me..... which the undoubtedly do. My relationship with my Momma is as strong as ever thanks  to our twice a day phone calls. She is and always will be my biggest fan and is always in my corner even though she sometimes will play the devils advocate to show me I am being ridiculous.

Thanks for reading  my rantings who ever you are..... I promise to post pictures of all my new creations... oh and on a really nerderific note (yes I made up that word.... spare me your judgment) I have read 7 1/2 books in one month..... I desperately need a more active social life....